Okay, Sometimes I Have To Be Nice To Myself

I have to admit that I think there are a few nice things about me. Firstly and most importantly, I am a good person. I care about others and try to always do the "right thing" (whatever that may be). I do things based on my own moral principles, not because I think I'll go to heaven for living a clean, sin-free life. I don't need religion to hold me together - I am capable on my own. Second, even if I am over weight and have stubborn, persistent (and evil) acne, I am pretty. Fortunately I have a fairly proportional frame, good coloring in my eyes, hair and skin - and I am creative and artistic just enough to be able to bring out the best of me (when I feel like it). I am smart and have big potential for my future. Though high school was a moderately shitty ordeal, I am allowed to make mistakes... and high school was definitely one of them. I can improve my study habits. I can become a more proficient reader and writer. I cannot predict or control the future but I will do my part to make college a better experience than high school. And even if I don't enjoy every year of college, I will try to enjoy it more than I have any other school. Here is a list of things I want to do in college (I won't promise just because the opportunities may not always be there for me to do them.):

• Study abroad at least once even if my parents object.
• Go to Uruguay during some vacation time.
• Take classes that really interest me (hint: CREATIVE WRITING!)
• make new friends that are REAL friends.
• Change myself if there is something I am not happy about.
• And most of all, ENJOY MY LIFE.

It's okay to make mistakes. I have the power to keep trying even if I run into obstacles.

The other day I found an article written by a feminist containing really inspiring (to me at least) advice. Maybe sometime I'll copy it into here when I am not so sleepy (like right now) and have a lot of time. It inspired me and left me feeling that way for days. Not a lot of things can do that for me. So when I find them I know they are special. The best part was when the author explained the importance of being nice to yourself (the whole point of this entry). It's been the best advice I've heard in a long time. I will copy it into here because this journal is meant to help me battle and conquer depression. I am my own ruler and I will win this fight. Plus, I know I am already starting to heal, I can feel it. I am happy for myself. I am happy that I am feeling better. I am happy to finally be feeling happy again.